2 weeks and 6 weeks!!!

I cannot believe that Josh only has 2 weeks of school left, we are SOOOOO excited. It will be nice to be able to spend time with my hubby that does not involve homework, papers, or ANYTHING with school. The boys are so excited and have had fun planning a party for daddy and figuring out what they can make him to show him how excited and proud they are of him!

I also can't believe that there is only 6 weeks until my due date (according to the ultrasound, I still think I am due earlier so we will see). I am so anxious to find out what this baby is but I am more anxious to see if my gallbladder issues will go away once this baby is born or if I will have to (most likely) have surgery removing my gallbladder a few weeks after having the baby! The boys are very excited about the soon to be baby and are hoping that they will have a sister and not another brother, we will see though. Hopefully they wont be too bummed if and when we have a boy! =) Three boys, that is a scary thought, but hey if God gives me three boys then I must be able to handle it!

Ready to have this baby!!!

I have decided that I would rather be in labor or giving birth then dealing with the pain of my gallbladder. I have been in almost constant pain for weeks now from about noon until I finally fall asleep at night. I cannot even explain the pain, but am ready to have this baby so I can deal with this pain through either drugs or surgery. I have tried dieting but nothing seems to work and nothing kicks the pain. One thing that I have realized is that I become an emotional wreck when I am in pain, and I become quick to become angry and am so impatient with my family. I have SOOOO much respect for my mom in seeing how she deals with her pain without taking it out on others or even becoming a grouch. I don't know how she does it but I am striving to be more like her.

Frusterating People

It has been an interesting week. We had a 4D ultrasound on Sat which was fun. We were able to see the baby smile and yawn, it was very cool. The ultrasound tech did take a pix of what the baby is and then made the comment "Don't look at the DVD or CD ROM because it is VERY OBVIOUS as to what this baby is." This was extremely frustrating because I would think it would be more obvious if it is a boy instead of a girl, so I am mad because I didn't want to have any clue as to what this baby is! SOOOOO I finally got over it only to have my in laws bring over a friend today who "believes" she is psychic and can tell the future. The whole family knows we don't believe in this and that we have NO interest in having someone tell us our future.

WARNING I AM ABOUT TO VENT!!! =)

So ANYWAYS, this lady has the nerve to just walk in and say:
"you are having a boy"
I said what? Excuse me? No one knows except for God and a couple ultrasound techs.
She said, "I can definitely tell that you are having a boy, but don't worry the next one will be a girl"
I told her I was done after this one especially with having such a difficult pregnancy and that if I would have known it would have been such a hard pregnancy that I would have reconsidered getting prego.
Of course she asked what problems I was having...which if I had thought quicker I would have told her if she really is psychic that she should know the problems that I am having, but of course I didn't think that fast.
Well anyways my emotions got the best of me and I know that she and Josh's ENTIRE family knew that I was extremely pissed off with this lady, so the lady as she left said:
"Don't worry you will have a quick and easy labor and delivery, but you need to change your attitude."
That of course pissed me off more. Seriously why can't people, especially when you don't know them just keep their mouths SHUT and why could my in laws NOT stick up for me when they know that I am having a hard time, and they knew that this lady was making it worse.

ON A GOOD NOTE:
Josh has 4 weeks left of school and only 10 papers left and he is done for GOOD. Also the boys are going to stay with the in-laws this weekend in order to give Josh and I a well needed break .

5 more weeks and counting....

As of tomorrow Josh will have 5 weeks left of school. He is starting his last two classes EVER! We are so excited because it has been a long 3 years and I can't wait for us to have all this free time to spend as a family. I am so proud of Josh for continuing on even when things have been tough. It has taken a long time but it is going to be so worth it in the long run. Now we are just praying for God to direct us to our next adventure whether it is here in Flagstaff or in Iowa. =)

More prego Complications...

So I have been having these really bad pains which often last a good portion of the day. I FINALLY asked my Dr. about them today and found out that it is my gallbladder acting up. UGGG. There is nothing that I can do because of how far into the pregnancy I am, so the only thing to do is to change my diet and eat extremely healthy! The crappy thing is that all the foods that cause the pain are the foods that I crave (like Pizza-yum). The Dr said that the pains could go away when my stomach is not so squished but if not then we will have to look into what needs to be done! So seriously I already have 2 surgeries planned for once this baby is born, but what is one more! =) I have to go in and get some veins removed because they have become painful due to the pregnancy and they are not likely to go away and I have to have my umbilical hernia fixed (thanks Ashton). This was my excitement for the day but at least the baby is doing great, and I guess that is ALL that really matters!

6 weeks left....

YEAH! Only 6 weeks and Josh will be done with school forever, the sad or crappy thing is although he only has 6 weeks he has at least 20 paper left to write between now and then! I am going to be relieved for him to finish so then we can have some time to relax before becoming a family of 5! I have to admit that it is scaring me to think that we are going to have 3 kids pretty soon. Kaden actually made a couple funny comments the other day in reference to us having 3 kids with only the 2 of us (Josh and I)....

(Kaden to Ashton) "When mom has the baby we will never be spanked anymore because dad and mom will be to busy!"
(Ashton back to Kaden) "YEAH!!!! No more spanks."

(Kaden to Ashton) "When mom has the baby there will be 3 of us and only 2 of them, we will get to do whatever we want."
(Ashton back to Kaden) "YES!!"

It was so funny hearing Kaden telling this to Ashton and Ashton was so excited. They were not too happy when I informed them that having another baby meant that we would be strict in order to make sure the baby doesn't get hurt and that they will get spanked when they need it.

Things are going well with the pregnancy besides being tired ALL the time and getting sick again! I am relieved that a lot of my stress's which I had previously has been reduced, which I know is really helping me especially with having such a tough pregnancy! I am finally seeing how simplifying my life is really beneficial to me and my family! Now I can concentrate more on the pregnancy as well as being excited to meet the baby and to FINALLY find out what it is. I am going crazy not knowing, although I am sure it is another boy, which is okay because we at least have a boys name! =)

The boys are doing good although I have been really impatient with them which is not so good. I have been having a hard time with being alone with them at nights, and am really struggling with Josh working nights. It seems like they will be wonderful during the day but turn into difficult children at night. I keep praying that my struggles will go away and that I will have more patience for my children

Emotions

Today has been a tough day! I am really struggling with my hubby's job and him working nights. I often feel like I am a single mom and am wondering why we decided to have another baby. I am willing to do anything...including moving...in order for Josh to get a regular day job. We are still waiting to hear on the internship for Josh but are praying that he will get it either here or in Iowa in order for Josh to start moving up within the company.

I just feel so lonely ALL the time and feel like I am constantly hanging out alone or with just me and the boys. I know that I need to be careful with my emotions in order to prevent falling into depression especially since I had postpartum with Ashton and this is likely to occur during my pregnancy, but it is hard not too.

On a good note Josh has 8 weeks left of school until he will be done forever! It will be so nice to not have to proofread anymore papers for awhile!