5 more weeks and counting....

As of tomorrow Josh will have 5 weeks left of school. He is starting his last two classes EVER! We are so excited because it has been a long 3 years and I can't wait for us to have all this free time to spend as a family. I am so proud of Josh for continuing on even when things have been tough. It has taken a long time but it is going to be so worth it in the long run. Now we are just praying for God to direct us to our next adventure whether it is here in Flagstaff or in Iowa. =)

More prego Complications...

So I have been having these really bad pains which often last a good portion of the day. I FINALLY asked my Dr. about them today and found out that it is my gallbladder acting up. UGGG. There is nothing that I can do because of how far into the pregnancy I am, so the only thing to do is to change my diet and eat extremely healthy! The crappy thing is that all the foods that cause the pain are the foods that I crave (like Pizza-yum). The Dr said that the pains could go away when my stomach is not so squished but if not then we will have to look into what needs to be done! So seriously I already have 2 surgeries planned for once this baby is born, but what is one more! =) I have to go in and get some veins removed because they have become painful due to the pregnancy and they are not likely to go away and I have to have my umbilical hernia fixed (thanks Ashton). This was my excitement for the day but at least the baby is doing great, and I guess that is ALL that really matters!

6 weeks left....

YEAH! Only 6 weeks and Josh will be done with school forever, the sad or crappy thing is although he only has 6 weeks he has at least 20 paper left to write between now and then! I am going to be relieved for him to finish so then we can have some time to relax before becoming a family of 5! I have to admit that it is scaring me to think that we are going to have 3 kids pretty soon. Kaden actually made a couple funny comments the other day in reference to us having 3 kids with only the 2 of us (Josh and I)....

(Kaden to Ashton) "When mom has the baby we will never be spanked anymore because dad and mom will be to busy!"
(Ashton back to Kaden) "YEAH!!!! No more spanks."

(Kaden to Ashton) "When mom has the baby there will be 3 of us and only 2 of them, we will get to do whatever we want."
(Ashton back to Kaden) "YES!!"

It was so funny hearing Kaden telling this to Ashton and Ashton was so excited. They were not too happy when I informed them that having another baby meant that we would be strict in order to make sure the baby doesn't get hurt and that they will get spanked when they need it.

Things are going well with the pregnancy besides being tired ALL the time and getting sick again! I am relieved that a lot of my stress's which I had previously has been reduced, which I know is really helping me especially with having such a tough pregnancy! I am finally seeing how simplifying my life is really beneficial to me and my family! Now I can concentrate more on the pregnancy as well as being excited to meet the baby and to FINALLY find out what it is. I am going crazy not knowing, although I am sure it is another boy, which is okay because we at least have a boys name! =)

The boys are doing good although I have been really impatient with them which is not so good. I have been having a hard time with being alone with them at nights, and am really struggling with Josh working nights. It seems like they will be wonderful during the day but turn into difficult children at night. I keep praying that my struggles will go away and that I will have more patience for my children

Emotions

Today has been a tough day! I am really struggling with my hubby's job and him working nights. I often feel like I am a single mom and am wondering why we decided to have another baby. I am willing to do anything...including moving...in order for Josh to get a regular day job. We are still waiting to hear on the internship for Josh but are praying that he will get it either here or in Iowa in order for Josh to start moving up within the company.

I just feel so lonely ALL the time and feel like I am constantly hanging out alone or with just me and the boys. I know that I need to be careful with my emotions in order to prevent falling into depression especially since I had postpartum with Ashton and this is likely to occur during my pregnancy, but it is hard not too.

On a good note Josh has 8 weeks left of school until he will be done forever! It will be so nice to not have to proofread anymore papers for awhile!