More patience!!

I have decided that I am NOT a patient person...yet I keep praying for patience and God keeps giving it to me or testing my patience. Once again I am being tested and I always think it is the hardest when your kids are involved. Brennan has been sick off and on for 1 1/2 months now with: fever, not eating, not drinking, throwing up, diarrhea, sleeping all the time, cranky, screaming in pain, not peeing, losing weight, and just acting different then his normal self. We have taken him to the Dr a few times and nothing, well we took him in again today and they decided after him losing another pound in 2 weeks that it is time to run tests. So they attempted to give him a catheter which he HATED. I had to use ALL my weight in order to hold him down, he is a strong little boy. Well the catheter didn't work because he had NO urine in his bladder so they had to bag him so that I could collect his urine. He ended up not peeing for over 8 hours, it was pretty scary for me, but he finally did it. Now I have to collect his bowel movements which is NOT going to be fun. They also drew lots of blood in order to do lots of tests on him. They are testing from bladder infections, to cancer which is a scary thought for me. The poor guy did pretty good getting his blood drawn it did take three of us though, me holding him as tight as I could, a nurse to hold his arm straight, and the nurse to draw the blood. I felt so bad for him though because you could tell that it hurt, and he screamed the entire time. Anyways.....most of the testing is over and now it is a waiting game. God is giving me strength though and helping me to not worry about the unknown. It is the first time ever for me not freaking out and I know that God is giving me this peace and will help us through anything that is going on with my little man. I know that my littlest man is in God's hands and that God has his hand on anything that maybe going on with my little boy.