Our newest family member!! and UPDATE on Kaden

We are loving every min with our three boys. Brennan has really been a happy baby and is so much fun to just hold and cuddle with. He is my little cuddle bug! One Monday we took him in for his check up and were excited that he only lost 1/2 an ounce so he is eating well and doing great. He was also looking so good that the Dr took him off of his billi blanket so now he is much easier to cuddle with and we are grateful that the jaundice is no longer there. Kaden and Ashton love their baby brother and are always wanting to help with him and hold him. They are such good big brothers.

We took Kaden to the eye dr again last Wed and they did the eye tests again to check his eyesight. The first one the machine which determines the eyesight still showed poor eyesight showing that he needed glasses for sure. I still didn't believe it because of watching Kaden for the past couple of weeks and not seeing problems with him seeing things. I was frustrated but just continued praying about Kaden, his eyes, and my emotions. So then we went into the room and the assistant again tested his eyes manually and still was getting the same results as the machine. So the Dr came in and I told her I just don't think his eyes are that bad and that I was really confused with the eye results, so she tested them again. Before she started I reminded Kaden to at least try even if he doesn't know what the pictures are and that when he is done we will go out for a treat just the two of us. SOOOOO as soon as I said that he looked at the screen and told us every single picture. After really testing him it was concluded that his eyesight is almost perfect and that there is not much need at all for glasses. We were so relieved and thrilled about the news. I even told the Dr that our entire church has been praying for him as well as many other people and that I believe that God has healed him and his eyes. We are so happy that Kadens eyes are fine and are so thankful of this miracle. God is truly amazing and all powerful!

Welcome to the world Brennan!!!

On Thursday, November 19th 2009 at 9:31 pm we welcomed Brennan Christopher W. Jensen into the world. He is a healthy and beautiful little boy with dark eyes. Brennan was 20 inches long and weighed 6 pounds and 3 ounces. He was anxious to get out and we were lucky that we made it to the hospital.

On Thursday, I started feeling contractions around 4 ish, they started becoming more consistent around 5:30 ish and were around 3 min apart around 8:30. I still was not convinced to go to the hospital but with my brother telling me I needed to go, I finally decided I would call Josh at work and head over there. We got to the hospital at 9:13pm, made it to our room at 9:20pm, and he made his entrance at 9:31pm. It was really quick that no one else made it to the hospital and the only reason a Dr delivered was because he had been called in, to deliver another baby. Since the other baby wasn't ready to come out he quickly delivered Brennan and then left in order to deliver the other baby. It was very exciting hearing for the first time that we had a baby boy and as soon as the Dr announced this, Brennan peed all over the Dr., most of the nurses, and me. The Dr and nurses said that they have NEVER seen a newborn pee this much ever. It was pretty funny!

It was also fun to see the look on my parents and Josh's parents faces when they walked into the room and realized that the baby was already here. I was bummed that my mom missed it, especially since she has been at all my other deliveries.

Brennan is doing great although his Billirubbin levels are off so he has to lay on a billi blanket until told otherwise by the Dr. Since he has to be on this blanket we are patiently waiting for the company to bring us a rental blanket over so we can go home and see the boys. We will post pictures soon!

Finally answers on more then one thing....

So after waiting for over 2 1/2 hours at the Dr's office we finally got answers. Kaden does not have mascular dystrophy. We are so relieved and excited and are so thankful that God has answered our prayers and has healed our little boys eyes. The Dr did inform us that Kaden has a blonde fundus which is somewhat like being light skinned just making his macular and other parts of his eyes pale. The worst case scenario is that he could possibly be nearsighted later but not much chance at all of being blind which is such a praise. We take Kaden back to the specialist in 4 months just to re-examine him and he will get his eyes checked again on Wed because his eyesight was appearing to be different then at the first visit. The first visit it showed his eyes as being 20/50, 20/60 but today it looked like it was 20/30 in each eye which is another blessing in itself. God has truly protected and healed our little boy. I am so thankful for everyone and their prayers as we have struggled through this trial.

We also received an answer for Josh's job which we were not too thrilled with but know that Josh has something in mind for us. Josh got a call today saying that they had an over-welling response for the internship and that after considering Josh for the position they decided to hire someone with previous experience as well as more computer experience. We are bummed but realize with so many people out of work with experience that they are more qualified for the job making it a difficult time to start the process of moving up. We are going to continue looking for jobs within Purina until we are able to look outside of the company. We have to stay with Purina for a year as they helped us with school and if Josh quits now we will owe lots of money to the company for their financial help with Josh's schooling. We are praying that something would appear for Josh and have also decided to apply again next year for the internship. Josh has also decided that he will take some computer classes this upcoming semester in order to give him more knowledge of computers which is becoming important within many companies. We are excited to be able to stay in Flagstaff, but are bummed to not start the process of moving up within the company.

All I can do is PRAY!!

These past two weeks I have felt like I am on an emotional roller coaster. I am not quit sure how to deal and feel like I am just falling apart. I am so worried about tomorrow and am going crazy with emotions. Part of me wants to know what if anything is going on, but at the same time I feel like after tomorrow all hope of healing might be gone. I pray that God would heal Kaden and his eyes, but am prepared for the worst. I know that God is going to do great things with and through Kaden which helps in comforting me because God has the perfect plan for my little boy.

I am so thankful for all the people who are praying for my family and my little boy and have really felt God's love and tenderness through the numerous people which God has placed in my life and has used to comfort me. Through using these people I have been able to feel like God is holding me in order to help me through this time in my life. It has brought me closer to God through prayer and scripture allowing me to make it through.

Psalms 34:18 - brokenhearted for Kaden

My grandparents recently sent me a card which has helped in giving me just a little bit of peace as well as helping me in emotionally making it through this difficult time in my life.

The God who spoke STILL speaks....
The God who came STILL comes.
He comes into your world.

He comes TO DO what you can't
Because He is with you,
He will bring you through this difficult time.

Psalms 34:18 says "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted."

This has really helped in reminding me that God is with me and is feeling my pain, the only way I can make it through this time is by turned to Him. I am so brokenhearted and have felt that I can't go on, but God is helping me in continuing on by turning to Him. It is also a good reminder that no matter what the results are that God is with me and is comforting me through this time. We are praying that the specialist that we are seeing will be able to clearly know what is going on with Kaden and are praying if it is something serious that God would heal him or that there is something that can be done in order to protect our babies eyes.

More prayers for Kaden and finally results for me.

Well......we received a call today from Kaden's eye Dr and after showing all the information and pictures to another eye Dr they feel that he should see a specialist as soon as possible. So we have scheduled an appointment for next Friday which is the 13th of November. We are relieved that we will at least know what is going on by the end of next week other than waiting and waiting in order to get results. We are still very concerned and worried about results but are continually giving it to God. We are praying that God will heal this perfect little boy and that if Kaden does have Macular Dystrophy that he will have the non progressive type which according to the Dr is more common then not. I am still hurting for my little boy and don't want to see him ever have to suffer. I don't want him to lose any of his eyesight and I just want to protect my baby boy. I am thankful that we are able to get into a specialist earlier then we thought.

So I went to the Dr yesterday who informed me that I have no gallstones and that all my organs look great according to the ultrasound. She went onto saying that the walls of my gallbladder were very thick, meaning that it is very inflammed which she is pretty sure is causing the pains. This could be due to earlier gallstones or a blocked duct from a gallstone which is unable to be seen with an ultrasound. My Dr hopes that these pains and inflammation will go away and if not after the baby is born I will go in for an MRI to see if anything is blocked in order to determine if the gallbladder will still need to be removed. I am relieved to know why I am having this pain and am praying that nothing is blocked and that maybe the baby is causing it to be inflammed.

God is testing us again!!!!

Wow so this has been a HUGE year with lots of testing and learning patience as well as learning to continually trust on God. For starters we found out that it is not my gallbladder causing problems, yet we do not know what is causing the pain. My Dr was 99% sure that it was my gallbladder and I am so thankful that I pushed for testing. Now we are back to the beginning of determining what is going on. Luckily I am due soon so that if more testing is necessary it won’t harm the baby and at least with it not being my gallbladder I wont have to have surgery. So we are hoping and praying that it is nothing serious that will maybe be fine once everything is not so squished.

Josh and I are really learning patience with not knowing what is going on with the internship. We are still patiently waiting to know if he has made it to the next phase or if God has something else in mind for us. I know we are more anxious with it getting so close to my due date and that has really stressed us out.

Finally, I took Kaden to the eye Dr today because I have had concerns with his eyes as well as his teacher. Well at first it turned out good and we found out he needs glasses which is hard for me especially since he is so young and he needs them all the time. ANYWAYS with doing the eye exam the Dr saw something she didn't like and she expressed GREAT concern for this. Of course in front of Kaden making him know something is wrong. So I asked her what was going on and she said it appears that he might have Macular Dystrophy which can cause vision problems which could eventually cause him to be legally blind depending on the type and the progression. I of course am freaking out, there are a bunch of kinds of this dystrophy some more severe then the other. It is most likely hereditary and was possibly passed on from Josh or I (most likely me because it is more common from the mother). This also means if this is what it is that Ashton and the baby will have a 50% chance of getting this! We go back in on the 18th for another eye exam as well as seeing another Dr to see his thoughts. If they still believe this is what it is or even not but are still concerned as to what it is, Kaden will have to go to a retina specialist in order to verify exactly what it is. I was hoping Kaden didn't hear much of what the Dr said but I think he did because he asked me to pray for his eyes today! So now we have to patiently wait to see another doctor in order to have a more clear understanding of what is going on. We are trying to not worry and give everything to God because we know there is nothing we can do at this point. It has been so hard to give it all to God though because it seems like it has been one thing on top of another.

Proud of my hubby and Halloween

Josh has just turned in his last paper and is officially DONE with school! I am so proud of him for sticking with school and finishing. It has been a long three years with two kids, a hard pregnancy, Josh working lots of overtime, and Josh going to school FULL time. I could not be prouder of him and am excited to see where this schooling leads us in the future. Josh truly amazes me!

We are still waiting to hear about the job in Iowa and should hear sometime this week (according to the lady that interviewed him on the phone). Josh and I are ready for a change and ANY job that is days instead of nights. We did hear that Flagstaff is not hiring anyone due to a hiring freeze so the likelihood of staying here is not very high. We are continuing to pray about this internship and that God will make it known as to what we should do. We are also praying that we would find out soon if Josh will be headed out to Iowa within the next week or two for a face-to-face interview. We hope to find out about this soon especially with the baby being SO close.

HALLOWEEN

The boys had a blast on Halloween it was the first time that Josh was able to be with us due to him having to work in the past. Josh and Ashton were both Pirates, and Kaden was Darth Vader. I dressed up as a farmer only because the boys made me and it was the only thing that fit! =) I will post pix soon! We went downtown with lots of family and friends and then took the boys trick-or-treating with the Wallace's in my brothers neighborhood. It was a fun day but we were ALL exhausted by the time we got home.