Our newest family member!! and UPDATE on Kaden

We are loving every min with our three boys. Brennan has really been a happy baby and is so much fun to just hold and cuddle with. He is my little cuddle bug! One Monday we took him in for his check up and were excited that he only lost 1/2 an ounce so he is eating well and doing great. He was also looking so good that the Dr took him off of his billi blanket so now he is much easier to cuddle with and we are grateful that the jaundice is no longer there. Kaden and Ashton love their baby brother and are always wanting to help with him and hold him. They are such good big brothers.

We took Kaden to the eye dr again last Wed and they did the eye tests again to check his eyesight. The first one the machine which determines the eyesight still showed poor eyesight showing that he needed glasses for sure. I still didn't believe it because of watching Kaden for the past couple of weeks and not seeing problems with him seeing things. I was frustrated but just continued praying about Kaden, his eyes, and my emotions. So then we went into the room and the assistant again tested his eyes manually and still was getting the same results as the machine. So the Dr came in and I told her I just don't think his eyes are that bad and that I was really confused with the eye results, so she tested them again. Before she started I reminded Kaden to at least try even if he doesn't know what the pictures are and that when he is done we will go out for a treat just the two of us. SOOOOO as soon as I said that he looked at the screen and told us every single picture. After really testing him it was concluded that his eyesight is almost perfect and that there is not much need at all for glasses. We were so relieved and thrilled about the news. I even told the Dr that our entire church has been praying for him as well as many other people and that I believe that God has healed him and his eyes. We are so happy that Kadens eyes are fine and are so thankful of this miracle. God is truly amazing and all powerful!

Welcome to the world Brennan!!!

On Thursday, November 19th 2009 at 9:31 pm we welcomed Brennan Christopher W. Jensen into the world. He is a healthy and beautiful little boy with dark eyes. Brennan was 20 inches long and weighed 6 pounds and 3 ounces. He was anxious to get out and we were lucky that we made it to the hospital.

On Thursday, I started feeling contractions around 4 ish, they started becoming more consistent around 5:30 ish and were around 3 min apart around 8:30. I still was not convinced to go to the hospital but with my brother telling me I needed to go, I finally decided I would call Josh at work and head over there. We got to the hospital at 9:13pm, made it to our room at 9:20pm, and he made his entrance at 9:31pm. It was really quick that no one else made it to the hospital and the only reason a Dr delivered was because he had been called in, to deliver another baby. Since the other baby wasn't ready to come out he quickly delivered Brennan and then left in order to deliver the other baby. It was very exciting hearing for the first time that we had a baby boy and as soon as the Dr announced this, Brennan peed all over the Dr., most of the nurses, and me. The Dr and nurses said that they have NEVER seen a newborn pee this much ever. It was pretty funny!

It was also fun to see the look on my parents and Josh's parents faces when they walked into the room and realized that the baby was already here. I was bummed that my mom missed it, especially since she has been at all my other deliveries.

Brennan is doing great although his Billirubbin levels are off so he has to lay on a billi blanket until told otherwise by the Dr. Since he has to be on this blanket we are patiently waiting for the company to bring us a rental blanket over so we can go home and see the boys. We will post pictures soon!

Finally answers on more then one thing....

So after waiting for over 2 1/2 hours at the Dr's office we finally got answers. Kaden does not have mascular dystrophy. We are so relieved and excited and are so thankful that God has answered our prayers and has healed our little boys eyes. The Dr did inform us that Kaden has a blonde fundus which is somewhat like being light skinned just making his macular and other parts of his eyes pale. The worst case scenario is that he could possibly be nearsighted later but not much chance at all of being blind which is such a praise. We take Kaden back to the specialist in 4 months just to re-examine him and he will get his eyes checked again on Wed because his eyesight was appearing to be different then at the first visit. The first visit it showed his eyes as being 20/50, 20/60 but today it looked like it was 20/30 in each eye which is another blessing in itself. God has truly protected and healed our little boy. I am so thankful for everyone and their prayers as we have struggled through this trial.

We also received an answer for Josh's job which we were not too thrilled with but know that Josh has something in mind for us. Josh got a call today saying that they had an over-welling response for the internship and that after considering Josh for the position they decided to hire someone with previous experience as well as more computer experience. We are bummed but realize with so many people out of work with experience that they are more qualified for the job making it a difficult time to start the process of moving up. We are going to continue looking for jobs within Purina until we are able to look outside of the company. We have to stay with Purina for a year as they helped us with school and if Josh quits now we will owe lots of money to the company for their financial help with Josh's schooling. We are praying that something would appear for Josh and have also decided to apply again next year for the internship. Josh has also decided that he will take some computer classes this upcoming semester in order to give him more knowledge of computers which is becoming important within many companies. We are excited to be able to stay in Flagstaff, but are bummed to not start the process of moving up within the company.

All I can do is PRAY!!

These past two weeks I have felt like I am on an emotional roller coaster. I am not quit sure how to deal and feel like I am just falling apart. I am so worried about tomorrow and am going crazy with emotions. Part of me wants to know what if anything is going on, but at the same time I feel like after tomorrow all hope of healing might be gone. I pray that God would heal Kaden and his eyes, but am prepared for the worst. I know that God is going to do great things with and through Kaden which helps in comforting me because God has the perfect plan for my little boy.

I am so thankful for all the people who are praying for my family and my little boy and have really felt God's love and tenderness through the numerous people which God has placed in my life and has used to comfort me. Through using these people I have been able to feel like God is holding me in order to help me through this time in my life. It has brought me closer to God through prayer and scripture allowing me to make it through.

Psalms 34:18 - brokenhearted for Kaden

My grandparents recently sent me a card which has helped in giving me just a little bit of peace as well as helping me in emotionally making it through this difficult time in my life.

The God who spoke STILL speaks....
The God who came STILL comes.
He comes into your world.

He comes TO DO what you can't
Because He is with you,
He will bring you through this difficult time.

Psalms 34:18 says "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted."

This has really helped in reminding me that God is with me and is feeling my pain, the only way I can make it through this time is by turned to Him. I am so brokenhearted and have felt that I can't go on, but God is helping me in continuing on by turning to Him. It is also a good reminder that no matter what the results are that God is with me and is comforting me through this time. We are praying that the specialist that we are seeing will be able to clearly know what is going on with Kaden and are praying if it is something serious that God would heal him or that there is something that can be done in order to protect our babies eyes.

More prayers for Kaden and finally results for me.

Well......we received a call today from Kaden's eye Dr and after showing all the information and pictures to another eye Dr they feel that he should see a specialist as soon as possible. So we have scheduled an appointment for next Friday which is the 13th of November. We are relieved that we will at least know what is going on by the end of next week other than waiting and waiting in order to get results. We are still very concerned and worried about results but are continually giving it to God. We are praying that God will heal this perfect little boy and that if Kaden does have Macular Dystrophy that he will have the non progressive type which according to the Dr is more common then not. I am still hurting for my little boy and don't want to see him ever have to suffer. I don't want him to lose any of his eyesight and I just want to protect my baby boy. I am thankful that we are able to get into a specialist earlier then we thought.

So I went to the Dr yesterday who informed me that I have no gallstones and that all my organs look great according to the ultrasound. She went onto saying that the walls of my gallbladder were very thick, meaning that it is very inflammed which she is pretty sure is causing the pains. This could be due to earlier gallstones or a blocked duct from a gallstone which is unable to be seen with an ultrasound. My Dr hopes that these pains and inflammation will go away and if not after the baby is born I will go in for an MRI to see if anything is blocked in order to determine if the gallbladder will still need to be removed. I am relieved to know why I am having this pain and am praying that nothing is blocked and that maybe the baby is causing it to be inflammed.

God is testing us again!!!!

Wow so this has been a HUGE year with lots of testing and learning patience as well as learning to continually trust on God. For starters we found out that it is not my gallbladder causing problems, yet we do not know what is causing the pain. My Dr was 99% sure that it was my gallbladder and I am so thankful that I pushed for testing. Now we are back to the beginning of determining what is going on. Luckily I am due soon so that if more testing is necessary it won’t harm the baby and at least with it not being my gallbladder I wont have to have surgery. So we are hoping and praying that it is nothing serious that will maybe be fine once everything is not so squished.

Josh and I are really learning patience with not knowing what is going on with the internship. We are still patiently waiting to know if he has made it to the next phase or if God has something else in mind for us. I know we are more anxious with it getting so close to my due date and that has really stressed us out.

Finally, I took Kaden to the eye Dr today because I have had concerns with his eyes as well as his teacher. Well at first it turned out good and we found out he needs glasses which is hard for me especially since he is so young and he needs them all the time. ANYWAYS with doing the eye exam the Dr saw something she didn't like and she expressed GREAT concern for this. Of course in front of Kaden making him know something is wrong. So I asked her what was going on and she said it appears that he might have Macular Dystrophy which can cause vision problems which could eventually cause him to be legally blind depending on the type and the progression. I of course am freaking out, there are a bunch of kinds of this dystrophy some more severe then the other. It is most likely hereditary and was possibly passed on from Josh or I (most likely me because it is more common from the mother). This also means if this is what it is that Ashton and the baby will have a 50% chance of getting this! We go back in on the 18th for another eye exam as well as seeing another Dr to see his thoughts. If they still believe this is what it is or even not but are still concerned as to what it is, Kaden will have to go to a retina specialist in order to verify exactly what it is. I was hoping Kaden didn't hear much of what the Dr said but I think he did because he asked me to pray for his eyes today! So now we have to patiently wait to see another doctor in order to have a more clear understanding of what is going on. We are trying to not worry and give everything to God because we know there is nothing we can do at this point. It has been so hard to give it all to God though because it seems like it has been one thing on top of another.

Proud of my hubby and Halloween

Josh has just turned in his last paper and is officially DONE with school! I am so proud of him for sticking with school and finishing. It has been a long three years with two kids, a hard pregnancy, Josh working lots of overtime, and Josh going to school FULL time. I could not be prouder of him and am excited to see where this schooling leads us in the future. Josh truly amazes me!

We are still waiting to hear about the job in Iowa and should hear sometime this week (according to the lady that interviewed him on the phone). Josh and I are ready for a change and ANY job that is days instead of nights. We did hear that Flagstaff is not hiring anyone due to a hiring freeze so the likelihood of staying here is not very high. We are continuing to pray about this internship and that God will make it known as to what we should do. We are also praying that we would find out soon if Josh will be headed out to Iowa within the next week or two for a face-to-face interview. We hope to find out about this soon especially with the baby being SO close.

HALLOWEEN

The boys had a blast on Halloween it was the first time that Josh was able to be with us due to him having to work in the past. Josh and Ashton were both Pirates, and Kaden was Darth Vader. I dressed up as a farmer only because the boys made me and it was the only thing that fit! =) I will post pix soon! We went downtown with lots of family and friends and then took the boys trick-or-treating with the Wallace's in my brothers neighborhood. It was a fun day but we were ALL exhausted by the time we got home.

God is really giving us patience

Well God is definitely giving us patience with all this waiting. Josh had a great interview today and not we wait for a week or 2 while Purina decides if they want to give him a second interview. If they do he will be flown out to Iowa either the first or second week of November (hopefully the first because it is further away from my due date) for a second face-to-face interview. We are just praying that if Josh is given this opportunity that the baby will stay in and wait to be born when Josh is home. Then we will be waiting again to find out if he was chosen. The good news is that we found out he will actually be making more money then he makes now, which is awesome and causes us not to stress at all. We are amazed at how well they take care of people going into management within the company and it makes Josh really want to move up instead of staying in his current position, but it also causes him to want to stay with the company. We know that God is in total control and that God will really show us where he wants us and what he wants us to do. God is truly amazing and we are excited to see where he might lead us even if that means moving away from my parents and Josh's family! I am scared of the possibility of moving but know that there is no need to have this fear because God will help us through.

Prayer Please

This is going to be a BUSY week and we can use lots of prayers! Josh is working on finishing up his last two weeks of school keeping him busy with homework. One Thursday at 11:30, Josh is having a phone interview for the job in Davenport, Iowa. Josh is pretty nervous about this first step and could really use some prayer as we begin this process. We would also like prayer for Josh and I to know if this is a good move for us and if it is where God is leading us. We are pretty excited that things are starting to move though with Josh's work.

On Friday I am going in for an ultrasound of my gallbladder in order to determine how it is looking as well as what might need to be done once the baby is here. I am relieved that I will know for sure what is going on so that I wont have to be worrying about anything serious. Also I am supposed to go in for an H1N1 flu shot but am freaked out. I don't know if it is better to have the shot or to just deal with the flu if I get it. I just wish I knew what to do which would protect both myself and the baby.

2 weeks and 6 weeks!!!

I cannot believe that Josh only has 2 weeks of school left, we are SOOOOO excited. It will be nice to be able to spend time with my hubby that does not involve homework, papers, or ANYTHING with school. The boys are so excited and have had fun planning a party for daddy and figuring out what they can make him to show him how excited and proud they are of him!

I also can't believe that there is only 6 weeks until my due date (according to the ultrasound, I still think I am due earlier so we will see). I am so anxious to find out what this baby is but I am more anxious to see if my gallbladder issues will go away once this baby is born or if I will have to (most likely) have surgery removing my gallbladder a few weeks after having the baby! The boys are very excited about the soon to be baby and are hoping that they will have a sister and not another brother, we will see though. Hopefully they wont be too bummed if and when we have a boy! =) Three boys, that is a scary thought, but hey if God gives me three boys then I must be able to handle it!

Ready to have this baby!!!

I have decided that I would rather be in labor or giving birth then dealing with the pain of my gallbladder. I have been in almost constant pain for weeks now from about noon until I finally fall asleep at night. I cannot even explain the pain, but am ready to have this baby so I can deal with this pain through either drugs or surgery. I have tried dieting but nothing seems to work and nothing kicks the pain. One thing that I have realized is that I become an emotional wreck when I am in pain, and I become quick to become angry and am so impatient with my family. I have SOOOO much respect for my mom in seeing how she deals with her pain without taking it out on others or even becoming a grouch. I don't know how she does it but I am striving to be more like her.

Frusterating People

It has been an interesting week. We had a 4D ultrasound on Sat which was fun. We were able to see the baby smile and yawn, it was very cool. The ultrasound tech did take a pix of what the baby is and then made the comment "Don't look at the DVD or CD ROM because it is VERY OBVIOUS as to what this baby is." This was extremely frustrating because I would think it would be more obvious if it is a boy instead of a girl, so I am mad because I didn't want to have any clue as to what this baby is! SOOOOO I finally got over it only to have my in laws bring over a friend today who "believes" she is psychic and can tell the future. The whole family knows we don't believe in this and that we have NO interest in having someone tell us our future.

WARNING I AM ABOUT TO VENT!!! =)

So ANYWAYS, this lady has the nerve to just walk in and say:
"you are having a boy"
I said what? Excuse me? No one knows except for God and a couple ultrasound techs.
She said, "I can definitely tell that you are having a boy, but don't worry the next one will be a girl"
I told her I was done after this one especially with having such a difficult pregnancy and that if I would have known it would have been such a hard pregnancy that I would have reconsidered getting prego.
Of course she asked what problems I was having...which if I had thought quicker I would have told her if she really is psychic that she should know the problems that I am having, but of course I didn't think that fast.
Well anyways my emotions got the best of me and I know that she and Josh's ENTIRE family knew that I was extremely pissed off with this lady, so the lady as she left said:
"Don't worry you will have a quick and easy labor and delivery, but you need to change your attitude."
That of course pissed me off more. Seriously why can't people, especially when you don't know them just keep their mouths SHUT and why could my in laws NOT stick up for me when they know that I am having a hard time, and they knew that this lady was making it worse.

ON A GOOD NOTE:
Josh has 4 weeks left of school and only 10 papers left and he is done for GOOD. Also the boys are going to stay with the in-laws this weekend in order to give Josh and I a well needed break .

5 more weeks and counting....

As of tomorrow Josh will have 5 weeks left of school. He is starting his last two classes EVER! We are so excited because it has been a long 3 years and I can't wait for us to have all this free time to spend as a family. I am so proud of Josh for continuing on even when things have been tough. It has taken a long time but it is going to be so worth it in the long run. Now we are just praying for God to direct us to our next adventure whether it is here in Flagstaff or in Iowa. =)

More prego Complications...

So I have been having these really bad pains which often last a good portion of the day. I FINALLY asked my Dr. about them today and found out that it is my gallbladder acting up. UGGG. There is nothing that I can do because of how far into the pregnancy I am, so the only thing to do is to change my diet and eat extremely healthy! The crappy thing is that all the foods that cause the pain are the foods that I crave (like Pizza-yum). The Dr said that the pains could go away when my stomach is not so squished but if not then we will have to look into what needs to be done! So seriously I already have 2 surgeries planned for once this baby is born, but what is one more! =) I have to go in and get some veins removed because they have become painful due to the pregnancy and they are not likely to go away and I have to have my umbilical hernia fixed (thanks Ashton). This was my excitement for the day but at least the baby is doing great, and I guess that is ALL that really matters!

6 weeks left....

YEAH! Only 6 weeks and Josh will be done with school forever, the sad or crappy thing is although he only has 6 weeks he has at least 20 paper left to write between now and then! I am going to be relieved for him to finish so then we can have some time to relax before becoming a family of 5! I have to admit that it is scaring me to think that we are going to have 3 kids pretty soon. Kaden actually made a couple funny comments the other day in reference to us having 3 kids with only the 2 of us (Josh and I)....

(Kaden to Ashton) "When mom has the baby we will never be spanked anymore because dad and mom will be to busy!"
(Ashton back to Kaden) "YEAH!!!! No more spanks."

(Kaden to Ashton) "When mom has the baby there will be 3 of us and only 2 of them, we will get to do whatever we want."
(Ashton back to Kaden) "YES!!"

It was so funny hearing Kaden telling this to Ashton and Ashton was so excited. They were not too happy when I informed them that having another baby meant that we would be strict in order to make sure the baby doesn't get hurt and that they will get spanked when they need it.

Things are going well with the pregnancy besides being tired ALL the time and getting sick again! I am relieved that a lot of my stress's which I had previously has been reduced, which I know is really helping me especially with having such a tough pregnancy! I am finally seeing how simplifying my life is really beneficial to me and my family! Now I can concentrate more on the pregnancy as well as being excited to meet the baby and to FINALLY find out what it is. I am going crazy not knowing, although I am sure it is another boy, which is okay because we at least have a boys name! =)

The boys are doing good although I have been really impatient with them which is not so good. I have been having a hard time with being alone with them at nights, and am really struggling with Josh working nights. It seems like they will be wonderful during the day but turn into difficult children at night. I keep praying that my struggles will go away and that I will have more patience for my children

Emotions

Today has been a tough day! I am really struggling with my hubby's job and him working nights. I often feel like I am a single mom and am wondering why we decided to have another baby. I am willing to do anything...including moving...in order for Josh to get a regular day job. We are still waiting to hear on the internship for Josh but are praying that he will get it either here or in Iowa in order for Josh to start moving up within the company.

I just feel so lonely ALL the time and feel like I am constantly hanging out alone or with just me and the boys. I know that I need to be careful with my emotions in order to prevent falling into depression especially since I had postpartum with Ashton and this is likely to occur during my pregnancy, but it is hard not too.

On a good note Josh has 8 weeks left of school until he will be done forever! It will be so nice to not have to proofread anymore papers for awhile!

1 week down 9 more to go!

With just getting into the swing of classes again Josh and I are realizing this is going to be the longest 9 weeks EVER. Josh has completed 2 of his papers but has 16 more to go in the next 4 weeks! =) Not only are we dealing with the pregnancy, two kids, and long work hours, but now we have the stress of school, yet one last time. I can not believe that Josh will be done in 9 weeks (if we can make it that long). I am so proud of him for continuing on with his crazy schedule and with having a family. He amazes me, but I have to admit I will be so relieved once he is FINALLY done and I never have to help proof read another paper EVER again!

One a good note we will one have a few weeks to go (in the pregnancy) once he is done with school, so we will have a little time to prepare for the new baby! The pregnancy is going well and contractions have eased a little as long as I take it easy (which is hard to do with two kids).

10 more weeks!!!

Josh is starting classes again tomorrow. We are both NOT looking forward to this because it has been so nice having my hubby all to myself instead of to the computer during his free time. Only 4 more classes and 10 more weeks and Josh will have a BS in Business and will NEVER have to attend school again unless he gets the urge to go for his Masters. =) I cannot believe that Josh will be finished with school after a little over 3 years of pushing himself by taking extra classes while working full time. I could not be more proud of him! =)

Once Josh is done with his schooling he will hopefully be moving up within the company either locally (doubtful) or in Davenport, Iowa. If we end up moving we will be leaving either this January or in June. A part of me is excited about the opportunity to move but at the same time it will be hard to move away from family especially since we will have a newborn. We know that God will direct us to where we need to be.

Life changes

The past few weeks have been FULL of surprises many of them good, many not, and many which have been extremely painful. Many have helped us in getting closer to God.

This past weekend Kaden started Kindergarten, he is going to the ONLY school which offers a half day program and he loves it. Today he had show-and-tell and of course he brought in his Caterpillar that he caught the other day. He was so excited and was hoping to scare some of the girls. He was bummed that he didn't scare ANY of them! = ) We are so thankful that we were able to get him into this school and really feel that it is the best decision especially with Josh's work schedule. I adore my time with Kaden and he has really helped me getting through some difficult times but giving me a hug or just crying with me. He is such a sensitive little boy but has really helped in showing me his love for me.

Josh has also applied for a job in Flag at Purina as the logistics manager assistant and is hoping that they will choose him although they would have to train him here (instead of Iowa which is where they usually send the trainees). We are not holding our breath on this one. Josh also recently applied for the same position in Davenport, Iowa. This would mean that we would be moving in either Jan or June of this year if he gets the job. We have mixed emotions on this because it would be fun to have the change but at the same time we want to be close to family especially with the new baby. We are just praying that God would direct us to where HE wants us to be and not where we want to be! =)

Ashton just turned 3 on Wednesday! I can't believe that he is already 3, because it seems like just yesterday that I had him! He had a lot of fun on his birthday though and got to spend some special time with just him, daddy, and lady (the dog) at the lake. Then that night we went to Papa and Nana's house to celebrate his birthday. Whenever anyone would tell him "Happy Birthday" he would say with a smile "Happy Birthday to ME." It was so cute and he was so excited, he is actually still singing happy birthday to me. =) This child is definitely like his mama through which is not a good thing and has been really testing Josh and I as parents. It has been a huge struggle especially recently and it always makes me wonder WHY ARE WE HAVING ANOTHER ONE??? Ashton can always put a smile on my face though and has really cheered me up lately with his smiles, funny faces, and teasing. I can count on him to put me in a good mood.

Onto me...Josh and I recently decided I needed to make a change at work and get rid of one of my two jobs. Once making our decision I was shocked to learn that God had laid it on another heart for me to get rid of the opposite job (which ended up happening). This has been REALLY hard on me even causing me to doubt my relationship with God. Luckily though it has really helped me in growing through all the pain and hurt of the situation. I may never understand why this happened but it is helping me to trust in God, knowing that he is in control and that he will help me to get through the hurt and pain.

Baby Jensen....baby is still a mystery and will remain so until delivery! =) The pregnancy is going better now, the cramping and contractions have eased except when my emotions have run crazy (which has happened A LOT lately). The cervix is still looking good and heartbeat has remained strong. We are anxious to know what the baby is but are excited for the surprise!!!

Praise the Lord

So I went to the Dr again last week and my cervix was longer and back to normal. This is incredible news and Josh and I were just in shock when the Ultrasound tech told us. From everything we have read we know that a cervix can change and have heard of people whose lengths have gone back and forth, we are just praying that it will always go back to being normal. I am still taking it easy since it was requested for me to be on partial bed rest, so I am making sure to still do that in order to hopefully help my cervix in not getting worse.

Partial Bedrest

So my Dr put me on partial bed rest today. I am only aloud to do things that are absolutely necessary and other than that I have to lay down. It is really hard to do this when you have two kids. Luckily Kaden is 5 so he can help out some. I also got put on some nasty meds to stop the contractions and stop the cramping. I haven't taken any yet but have heard that it is like drinking an entire pot of coffee and to plan on a migraine for a couple of hours, so it should be fun! =) I guess as long as it stops any progress of the cervix it is okay!

I go in tomorrow for another ultrasound to see if there have been any changes within the past week, if so it could mean strict bed rest so hopefully everything is the same or better. I have to say that this pregnancy and this baby has really brought me to God through prayer. I have been on my knees so much already and the baby isn't even here yet and hopefully will not be for at least 16 or 17 more weeks.

Thanks everyone for the prayers it is greatly appreciated and is a huge comfort.

Prayer Please

Well I just found out last week that my cervix is already starting to shorten. Since I am only a little over 20 weeks this can be a serious problem as it can put me into preterm later causing a miscarriage. The cervix should not start shortening until right before delivery so even a little bit of shortening can be serious. There is a possibility that I will be put on some nasty drugs to stop the contractions and I could possibly be put on bed rest. I am of course concerned about losing this baby but am praying that my cervix will stop shortening and that I will have a healthy baby born at term.

So we officially decided not to find out what we are having this time, so that I wont be as disappointed when we have another boy. I am sure it is a boy but I would rather find out after I have him and can see him, so then I wont have the disappointment. The baby looked great on the ultrasound, so the only concern now is my cervix.

Baby and school

So Josh and I have officially decided that we are not going to find out what we are having. It is going to be really hard, but I think that it will make everything so exciting. I have finally reached the halfway point and we get to see the baby again on Wed for our ultrasound which is exciting.

Josh is almost done with school which is SO exciting. He finishes his current classes on Monday, then has a 4 week break before he continues on for the last 10 weeks of school. He is set to finish on Nov 2nd so just in time before the baby arrives.

Other news is that starting in Aug. Josh will begin the process of applying for training positions within Purina. We are so excited to begin the adventure of moving up in the company, even if that means that we have to move. We are praying that we could find something here but know that might not be possible so are taking everyday one step at a time and praying for God's direction in this major decision in our lives.

My babies!!

Heartbeat

We were able to hear the heartbeat yesterday, which was awesome. I was hoping we could finally hear it although a part of me didn't want to because then I would have gotten an ultrasound, but oh well. The Dr said that the baby is sounding good. I was very excited, although I had wanted Josh and the boys to be able to come in and hear and they were unable to because of course Ashton is sick again! Our one concern is that 5th disease had gone around our church which can be very dangerous for pregnant women so we are hoping that Ashton doesn't have that, because I am not immune to it. I am having to get tested every couple weeks in order to make sure that I am still negative. So we are praying that I stay negative!

Josh and I had a wonderful time on our vacation without the boys. It was really nice to get away and be able to spend some times together.
This was in Belize on a cave expidition.

On one of the rivers in Belize! This was the river were the opening of Indiana Jones "Raiders of the Lost Ark" was filmed!

This was in Grand Cayman, the beach was beautiful here and the water was so nice.

We climbed the Dunns River Falls! It was awesome!

Us all dressed up for our formal night on the ship. It was so much fun! You can even see my baby pooch! =)

Slacker

I have been such a slacker!!!

I now have a 5 year old and one that will be 3 in three months. Time is sure flying by. Josh and I recently went on a cruise with NO kids and had a wonderful vacation. We met some wonderful people and had a blast going to Jamaica, Grand Cayman, and Belize. We are already ready to go on another cruise in a couple years. We had a wonderful time reconnecting and just being alone.

Kaden is close to being done with preschool and is getting ready to start school. We are still trying to decide what to do for his schooling because the kindergarten is full day which we know will not work for our family with Josh's schedule at work. We are hoping that something will pop us so he can go somewhere for part day and if not I will have to lower myself and homeschool him, which I am NOT looking forward to. Kaden is doing good though and is such a big helper to me with his brother.

Ashton is such a hyper child and has SO much energy ALL the time. He is a lot of fun though and loves his big brother. He just recently started using the big boy potty and is doing awesome!! We did have to break down and order him some Mickey Mouse Underwear from the Internet because he has been asking for that underwear for over a month now and we figured he must really want them, so I finally located some. He was SO excited and looks in the mail everyday for them, but hey whatever helps the potty training. =)

I finally finished school and received an associates of applied science in Medical Office Assistant, if I want I can take a test to become a medical assistant, but we will see if I decide to do that. Josh is still in school and will be graduating on November 4th with a BS in Business Management. He currently has 8 classes left counting the 2 that he is in now. We are so excited about this because it has been a long time coming. In Aug he will start applying for Internships within his company, it is looking like we will have to move to Iowa for a couple years. We are not looking forward to this but are willing to do it if this is where God is leading us!

Life sure is crazy!

So wow our life has been crazy over the past few months and it is just getting crazier! I start an internship next week which means on Monday's I will never see Josh. I am very concerned about this because I feel like we never see each other anyways. I can already tell that this semester is going to be a tough one. Josh is still in school and wont be done until October, but at least there is an end in sight. That is definitely helping us in making it through. Although then we also have the stress about the possibility of moving to Iowa when Josh is finished in order to begin moving up the ladder within the company. This is scary but at the same time is exciting. I just pray that we will know exactly what God wants us to do once Josh is finished with his schooling. With all the stress in our crazy lives, I just pray that we have time for God, each other, our kids, our family, and our friends. We need to remember what is important and not forget about it with everything going on in our lives.